Friday day

Even through all of the thinking and venting and complaining...it think this week has been pretty good. BUT i think i might have relapsed about this whole issue. After work the other day, I went to jsoh's house because we wanted to cook dinner. my goshhhdammn it was hella good. Hamburger steak with onion rings. I must say even though I'm not in culinary anymore, i still LOOOOOOOVE cooking. Especially with babes because he makes cooking fun and he always has questions to do things right. :) & then we just cruised at his house & before I knew it....I was too tired to drive home so I crashed over. That was the part where I relapased. Ughhhhh. I don't know. I mean I wanted to crash over and he had no problem with it if I went home but I guess it's just easier to cave sometimes. I don't know. But Babe and I haven't been arguing lately. which I'm SOOOOOOOO happy about. We had a few talks this week and I feel alot better that we're not arguing anymore.

Okay. So You Think You Can Dance? last night. OMG. I mean I know it's the finale next week and they're counting down the dancers but OMG I had no idea who was gonna go home. I mean I kinda thought Evan was going because he had such a bad review from the judges last night and I didn't think he did that we'll either but Ade went home. pooo. Owell. I LOVE kayla & brandon. I think they'll go head to head for the title. They make awesome partners & they're both HOT. haha. but I really liked melissa for her ballet....and then again i really like jeanine. ahhh they all win!! haha. But for the finale...I'm really rooting for Brandon or Kayla!!! :)

Sister came home today. For the past 8 days she's been on the Big Island with her boyfriend Makani and his mom. Luckyyy. They invited her to go since Makani won tickets for a 3 day stay on the B.I. so they made a little family vaycay out of it. So yeah. & only got him & his mom down here. He's not real close to his dad's side and her family all live in Seattle/Canada area up in the mainland. So she was real lucky to go. But she's back & I've missed her. But I don't know if I'll see her until laaaaater tonight or tomorrow cause Babe and I might go out & my car is on this side might as well.

Anywhoos. That's all for now. Peace lovers. Have a great weekend.

Sesh.

I need this summer to hurry up. I wanna be busy again, like with school and work. I mean even though in the past I haven't been the best with schooling (even in high school), i really wanna try hard this year. I mean just Fall & Spring semesters then I'm done with KCC. I'm getting out after I get my AA. Late huh. It'll be my 4th year in college & i'll only have a 2 year AA degree. I mean I know atleast 1 degree is better than none, but seriously. I wish I could go back to freshman year of college and stay on track with my Liberals. I would probable be at UH by now. Cause first I had Nursing, then Culinary, the now back to Liberals. But ahh whatever. No need for that irrelevant thinking ah.

Since I changed majors a few times and that I kinda wasted money on school, my parents think I should just get my AA and find a job already. I understand where theyre coming from by I really want to strive for my BA in...something. English I'm thinking. For now anyway. Atleast a BA. Then I'll go looking for a full time job in using that degree. It seems like college has just started and ending at the same time and then just in a few years...working full time and saving up for a car...house..and the rest of my future.

I really need to clean my room. It's only Wednesday and it's a mess! I betta jump on that NOW. haha. I heard this song on FM100 yesterday but I don't know the name. It's a new reggae song. Idk. I recorded some of it on my blackberry so I guess i'll just ask babe if he knows what song it is. I miss him. I haven't seen him since Friday night. I was supposed to see him last night when me, jojo, & antonio went to go watch movies. We invited him but he didn't feel like going. poo. :( but anyways. We say The Ugly Truth. OMFG. I didn't expect it to be so funny. We was cracking up. I mean I knew it was gonna be about them falling in love after they hate each other but there was so much sexual humor in it. omg my cousins was rollin.

Anyway just a vent sesh. <3

Ciao lovers.

Weekend

FRIDAY

- No work

- Errand for Mom

- Babe' s house 1-6

- Babe went golfing with the boys 1-6

- Get ready for the night

- Drop off car at Rick's house

- Wait for Kawika to pick us all up

- Wait more.... haha :) with Kale, Rick, Babe, and Jules

- Cruise at Kawika & Serra's hotel (instead of going Birthday Bash)

- Walk the strip randomly with babe, Rick, & Kale

- Walk the WHOLE strip, from one end to the other :D

- Find a place for babe to pee from drinking all day long. haha.

- Complain about how babe and I should of went to Birthday Bash

- Walk back to Kawika & Serra's room

- Cruise

- Aunty Berta & Uncle Ray pick us up and drop us off at Rick's house to pick up our car

- Drive babe's drunk ass home

- Sleep time

SATURDAY

- Babe leaves to go work at 630.

- Sleep

- Leave babe's house at 10

- Foodland run

- Clean up outside

- Get ready for Aunty Lisa's going away party

- Party

- Pool time :

- Foodland run with tasha :)

- Watch The Unborn with Tasha, Rhaun, & Kristie

- Play pool with Joe, Tasha, Kristie, & Antonio

- Eat Hawaiian food...... YUMM!

- Party

- Watch Harry Potter 3 with the kids

- Fall asleep

- Talk with babes

- Sleep

SUNDAY

- Breakfast

- Running with Joe

- Gym with Joe

- Pool time :)

- Lunch

- Nap

- Clean room

- Figure out Schedule for August - December

- Check in with Sister on her trip on the Big Island

Rambling..

I feel like sometimes I'm being pulled into too many different directions. You know? & I sometimes I don't even know it's what I want to be doing. I feel like when I want something...it usually does not happen & I always have to adjust to keep the peace of the situation. Like with the boyfriend...I feel like I give-in too much in doing things that he wants to do. -_-

I don't know. & plus this weekend too. Birthday Bash weekend. I really really wanted to go with Babe. But he doesn't want to go. He just wants to drink with the boys. & I told him now since he's 21 he can drink inside. But he doesn't want to now. & then his friend's got a hotel room. & I guess I'm excited for that. But see....again....adjusting...

& then with sister. Oh yes I love her and she's my best friend but I feel like sometimes she gets hypocritical. Like she's always complaining on how I'm never home or never with her because I'm always with Joshua. BUT-- she's always with her friends...at practice...with her boyfriend. I mean come on. Her first priority is school & her boyfriend too. So why does she jump down my throat about shit when she does it too. Plus the timing is all wrong. Whenever she's home with mama&dad then I'm out. & then whenever I'm home she's always out. I don't know what to do sometimes.

Atleast lately it's been good with Mom. I mean for a long long while I never liked being home because whenever I was home, since I wouldn't see her much...all she would talk to me about is school, work, & josh. Which at the time I hated school, work sucked, & dealing boyfriend troubles. So after Mom and I had a few long talks about school & figuring out what I want to do with my life and how she's been laying off about being out all the time thing....My goshhh it feels good. Like we're talking more and I haven't felt that way since the begining of the year. It's been a while. So we're good. thankgodd.

Anyways. Still crossing my fingers about the job. :)

Peace lovers.

THIS.

I'm so excited. I finally got another shot. I just hope I don't blow it again. Another interview. **crossing fingers** I hope I do well. So for now I'm just gonna brush up on some knowledge before August 11th. :) I'm more confident now than how I was a few months ago on the first interview. *shakes head* but now I know how it will go and I just need to practice and get better. :) I know that Babe is happy because he knows I been looking for a second job since money has been so tight. :) But anyways, that's all.

I love the way this girl does her eyeliner. I always do my eyeliner this way. With the wing and all. I guess I just need to practice because my eyes are always never identical. Like when I do my right eye, I love it and then I have trouble with the left. I mean I used the exact same product && brush but ahh. Idk. Just practice, practice, practice...

Peace lovers.

what a way to start off my day...

Babe had to save my ass again today. Thanks babe!

So this morning I get a call from ASB that my account is in the negative and if I don't deposit money today then they'll charge me a $30 overdraft fee. Mustabeen cause I had to pay for fricken college. ugh. anyway. So yeah and then after I dropped off Mom at her job (because mom's car was out of commision so...my sister and I have the lovely task of taking her where she needs to go). Then I went to ASB to deposit money. That money was meant for gas, breakfast, and parking and I was wayyy clear from the negative So after I put gas and got breakfast, I knew I still had extra money to take out for parking. So I got into work at 10:30 and for my parking lot by my job pays by every hour. So every hour is $1.50 except the first two hours are $.75 each. So I've been here for about 2 hours and I wanted to move my car to save some extra cash. So I go to the ATM and guess what...I'm still effing in the negative! && I got the overdraft charge! I'm pissed. So I gotta go there after work and figure out why. Ughh. So in the mean time I have no money. Luckily Babe gets off work the same time as I do so he's gonna swing by my job & pay my parking. Ughhhh I hate when I rely on other's for money. I ALWAYS pay for my own shit. I don't ask my parents or boyfriend for no nothing. We'll boyfriend pays for me when we go out and sometimes he gives me cash when I need. But USUALLY I always pay for my own stuff.

I'm gonna be runnin tight with money ill atleast October since I gotta make monthly payments for my college. We'll I mean I don't make alot as it is. Babe's right. I need a new job....or atleast a second one.

My idea is that since I graduate in May. Then during the summer I can look for a full time job. Plus I think taking a break from school for a while sounds good. Make money and such. I just don't know what I wanna go into since everything cost monayyyyy. I've made a list of things I would like to do...after graduation with AS in May:

1. BA in English from UH & go into writing books or for the newspaper or something in that field.
2. Take that makeup master course I was supposed to do this past July & re-apply at MAC.

I love creative writng & I love makeup.

Choices...choices....

I'll get back later.

LOVE.

Thoughts

Best I ever had.

Gosh, I love that song.

Poor babe. Boyfriend is having a worst week. First he cut his hand at work & got 7 stiches. Then he scratched his car. :(....It's not his week. :) But ahhh gonna be fine.

Forever 21 is seriously my new favorite store. I mean Charlotte Russe used to be it, but for the past few times I just can't find something that I'm like "OMGGGG I gotta get that". yah know? I love Express too but F21 is sooo much more affordable...especially with my broke ass.

Just paid part of my tuition for KCC Fall 09 semester. Gaash. One more year there then transfering to UH. hopefully. I'm really striving for it. Gonna work my ass off these next 3 years.
I wanna major in English & go into creative writing and writing books and stuff. :) That would be boss.

Hahah. Just my thoughts for the day. Peace loves.