ANYWAYS...nothing much has changed or has happened really. Just the same old same old. School and Work. which neither is going anywhere it feels likes. I feel like at this point in my life...it's kind of like a "waiting room" phase.
Like with school....I've been skipped class like crazy. I'm kinda thinking that school really just isn't for me. I mean I've been paying for school this and last semester and I don't feel like it's worth it sometimes. I know that I should be wayyy wayyy focused but I can't seem to get the jist of things. I mean I know getting that degree is what I should be focusing on but...idk. I was talking to my sister the other day and I told her about not going to class and she feels like I should quit school and do a full time job. With that said one one hand I would much rather pursue makeup and start taking those classes, branching out, and doing that full time....and then on the other...my gut is telling me to atleast finish my AA degree. It's really been driving me insane but it keep in undercover because I just know that if any of that got back to my parents, I would never hear the end of it.
Then with work. Arghh. I mean I am so grateful that I have this job and I know there is a bunch of people who was just laid off of their long time careers but it's not going anywhere. I mean I love love love the people I work with and since it is my first real job, I'm so comfortable with them. I don't know. Babe feels like I should find another job because he always sees me not happy about my job. I'm thinking after christmas time, I might put in my resignation. With thaaat said, I need to get my ass in gear with finding another job.
I feel like a fresh start with everything. School situation...work situation.....living situation....money situation.....working out situation.....all of it.
Atleast me and the boyfriend have been doing good. I mean we have our personal issues and ups and downs, but I really can't see myself without him. I mean I've done it once, and don't get me wrong....I can handle it on my own...but I'm just so attached to him and his family that since it's the second time around....i really REALLY can't picture my life without him. We make 4 years on December 30th. && I have a few gifts lined up for him. I mean those cost money (which I don't have for it now) but I will be saving my ass up like crazy November and December if I want to get those things for him. Last weekend a friend of mine made a comment about us: "I'm surprized you two aren't engaged?" Whoa. I mean he's my boyfriend of 4 years and all but DDDAMN. Engaged? Scary thought huh? I mean we're both still not finished with college, both still living in our own homes (even though I stay at his house most of the week), we don't have alot of money... I mean his job pays him good and mine...well...mine isn't paying for us....but i don't know. When I started thinking about it more...I started thinking to myself : When ARE we getting engaged? I hope that it's somewhere within the next 1 1/2 years. Atleast hopefully by then ill have my AA, have a full time job, and we'll be moved out. *Fingers Crossed.* It'll all come in time. I just know that I love him and that's all I need right now. :)
Just a quick summary of life as I know it now. :)
Have a great day everyone!
Until next time...
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